Airport In Love Part I

"Someday we’ll find it, the rainbow connection.
For lovers and dreamers and Me.”
~ Jim Henson’s Muppets

On Monday, I broke my fast at the airport.
It was a deliberate decision, as I also had to pass my ex-colleague who’s working there some stuff of his.
In the end it turned out to be a mini-reunion of sorts as several other ex-colleague of mine turned up at the last minute.
As we ate and talked and reminisce bout old times, my mind began to wander.
As usual.
Bout events that had transpired in the past.
Sigh.
Somehow or rather, the airport has always figured prominently in my love life.
It had witnessed both the beginning and the end of my relationships.
Haiz…

It wasn’t that long ago on the 30th of August, six years ago that I was there.
Having lunch with dear FHM at T2’s staff cafeteria.
We had just met only about two months before, attending an orientation programme.
And already I was enamored by her.
I had taken an instant liking to her the first time we met.
‘Setan pakai tudung’ was the first words I spoke to her.
Taunting her.
Hahah…we were having a game lah.
I had actually meant to say something else entirely but it somehow came out differently.
Idiot!!
I was determined to get to know her better and had not turned back since.

So there I was, on that fateful day, sitting across her, eating my chicken rice – or tried to.
I just didn’t have the appetite.
I was so nervous and my heart was beating so fast that it’ll pop out any moment.
For you see – only hours earlier, I had finally mustered enough courage to pop her the question.
Yes THE question after trying to win her heart for the past two months.
But nonchalantly she just sat there and ate.
Pretending like nothing had happened.
Chose to torture me instead by making me wait till the day’s nearly over.
Making empty conversations and hiding her enjoyment of watching me squirm in my seat.
Giving me that cheeky smile of hers that I soon came to love with.
Complaining bout the food – I was like bursting in anticipation and she was complaining bout the food!
Haha…those were the days.

But it was also in the airport that my world came crashing down.
Just four months ago…my whole life changed.
All my hopes and aspirations dashed in a blink of an eye.
Cos it was here, at T2’s Popeye, that she asked to leave me.
It was here that my life started to drop into a decline – headfirst.
We cried there, both she and me.
In view of the public eye.
But I didn’t care.

Cos I had lose the only person whom I cared and loved so dearly.
With whom I spend countless moments of joy and sadness.
With whom I shared my heart…this tiny little heart.
With whom I had thread through life’s ups and downs.
With whom my heart still yearns for…even till now.
And it was all my fault.

Sigh.
I regretted the day I asked for that ‘time-off’.
With all my tiny little heart.