Pondok^Boyan

Interim Relief

Ahh..finally ive cleard all my papers!
Yes yippee!!
No more slogging over textbooks for me tis coming months.
No more worryin bout forking extra money whenever i fail.
No siree bob!!

Ahh...think im gona treat myself today.
Yes, piece of mind.
Relax.
Cao!

Busy, busy as a Bee

Helo people.
Cant talk now.
Tomorrow's my last paper.
I hope.
Wish me luck.
Godspeed!!

Shelebet

Shelebet!

Yup tats the word ive been trying to remember.
A word used so long ago tat ive forgotten all about it.
A term that truly describes how shitty i was.

Its like FUBAR.
Fucked Up Beyond All Reason.
Term used by those valiant war horses of WW2.
Not exactly a word, but has deeply valued meaning.

Shelebet.

Dun noe exactly what it means actually.
Even up till today.
All i noe was tat i used it whenever i felt !@#$-ed.
When everything was shitty.
When it seems tat ive got no control over things.
Alwas when i was cranky.
When i was feeling..well shelebety.

Shelebet.

Picked up tis term while i was in JI.
Er, Jurong Institute tat is and not the other JI.
While i was doing my 3 months stint.
While i was still crowned 'Kokomo King'.
Haha..those were the days.
Carefree with naught to worry about.

Unlike now.
My life is a piece of crap - like dog poo.
Shit.
Shelebet siaks!!

Oh ya not to forget Shmekun!

R-Rated Life

Another emo day for me.
Walked down from the workplace to Geylang Serai.
Straight after work.
On the dot, chop chop - without delay.
Can't wait any longer to stay cooped up in the office.
Like a bloody prison.

Duno if its the weather or fatigue or just plain Hunger,
But seems my mind cant function properly these days.
Been visiting past memories - haunting ones.
Cant able to plug it out of my mind man!!
Shit.
Im so messed up.

Even the walk was pure torture.
Macam a lost boy.
Turn right i see couples.
Turn left i see couples.
Front and back too.
Arghhh...
Fate's been playing his cards well - mocking me it seems.
Not now Fate.
Im not in the !@#$-ing mood!
Not today, yesterday nor tomorrow.

The only respite was meeting up wif my fellow Army bros.
Hohoho...we realised one thing as we sat there,
That even though everyone at the tabe haf a Diploma,
Only ONE, yes ONE, who actually had a job related to it.
Wat a !@#$-ed up twist of !@#$-ing events!

me n my buddies!

My my...cant believe how shitty i feel today.
Feels like PMS, whatever tat is.
Duh..like i know??!!

To round up tis my !@#$-ing mood, i took this test.
Something bout my lifestyle or watever shit.

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Haiz..boku wa nemuni ne!!
Ja Oyasumi!

Lay of Recluse

So long.
So long it has been since ive spent my weekend out with friends.
In the company of those who could make me smile, laugh and joke.
In the company of whom I could release the tension that had been bottled up in me.
Trading jokes, stories and the occasional friendly insults.
A refreshing change in quite a long while.

Instead of being cooped up at home.
Being all broody and morose.
Lamenting on how lonesome ive found myself into.
Letting the melancholy permeating through my inner self.
Wallowing in self-pity and despair.

Its been awhile since ive the opportunity to smile and laugh.
To again put on my mask.
A façade of cheer and joy.
Of being entirely someone else.
Of being the shadow of my former lost past.
Of being the clown again to put a smile on their faces.
Projecting the air of unbridled care and wanton zealousness.
Of being somebody else – but me!

“Make sure when you laugh, your laughing both on the outside and the inside too!” ~ Hoong Tze

How apt.
But unfortunate as ive started on this dark road.
One that I could not find myself from turning back from.
God help me.

A Birthday In Seoul

Wah...so full!
Broke my fast at Seoul Garden today wif my NJRC refs.
And that was one HEAVY dinner man.
Still burping even till now.
Hahaha.

We also concurrently celebrated the birthdays of two lovely ladies.
Auww...look so sweet rite?
I meant the cake!
Hahah....yes we had a cake, a Mango Cheesecake to be exact!
Yummmy.
Sigh, why wasnt there any cake on my birthday??
Oh well...cant have it all rite?

Hmm had lots of fun just now.
Have not been laughing that much in quite sometimes now.
What a lovely bunch!

Okie lah think i'll stop here.
Too full - cant think.
Cheers all!

Hmm its been a long time since ive smiled.
Thanks ah guys!

Snail vs Email

Why snail mail and not email??
Why manual instead of online??
Why??

Hmm why dun we give it a thought.
A kampung house and an HDB flat.
Both are places we live in.
Both provides shelter above our heads.
Both are places that we retreat to after a long day of work.
A place of solace to some of us.
A domain, a recluse.
But the diff??

Nostalgia.
Rustic nostalgia.

Call me old-fashioned.
Call me square.
Call me backwards...i dun care.
Call me traditional even.

But nothing,
And i mean nothing,
Beats the feeling of opening tat old rustic mailbox of mine and to find a letter.
Yes!
A letter!
Not some bills and spam!
That all too familiar worn out, rectangular piece of paper that haf my name written on it.
My name!!
Written lovingly and carefully by the kind and gracious sender.
Posted specially to urs truly.
Sigh.

Now tell me.
Do you get that same kind of feeling when u check ur emails?
I dun honestly.
The feeling of having a letter or card handwritten specially to u is so much more different than facing a monitor reading typed words.
Yes the content maybe the same but..its just too impersonal.
Like a shell without a soul.
Hahahah.
Im weird rite??

Thats it den.
Cheers all.